The greatest entry of all..

Oh no no, not the Greatest entry of them all..But is the greatest cos if filled with so much so much Bubbles of 'Love'!!Love i received from my loving family,helpful colleagues,awesome N282, thoughtful friends.Love that i've received when i learnt to give, & showing the meaning of appreciation. Yeah i've found the meaning of a true Love,it comes when i've a constant r'ship with God, then He shows me that as i seek Him 1st the kingdom of God & His righteousness, and all these shall be added onto me(Matt 6:33).
Sometimes journey maybe long,tiring or even boring! But fear not cos of His amazing Love, all those fear had been cast out!!(1john4:18)
If i cld speak all languages of Earth & of angels,but didn't love others,i would only be a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal(1cor 13:1-2,NLT) and if i had such faith that i cld move moutains, but didn't love others, i would be nothing, If i gave everything i ve to the poor & even sacrificed my body, i cld boast abt it, but if i didn't love others, i would ve gained nothing........
As simple as that,i believe my definition of His Love, it does not de-valuate but it upholds,
Hmm i think is like- "For i know the thoughts that i think towards u,says the Lord, thoughts of peace & not of evil, to give u a future and a hope"(Jer29:11)


So even if i've full faith,loads of hope,it may mean nothing...coz i need plenty of His grace to help me love people!^.~

Love is the greatest.

Shall i close this blog?

Wow,this blogspot been with me since my poly years,next yr will b heading to Nus to get my Honours.Hence,due to the hectic work sceldule, i've seldom update too! Haha, but all i've blogged was really memories,of my walk with God, and the thoughts of the day.So yea,still in the consideration of closing it..Should i?:)

Everyone's favourite "Don't stop Believing" by Glee!:)

No news doesn't = good news

I saw tis interesting ad in one of the busstop, pondering over it, how true is this..

No news is good news, even it is bad news i'll rather know how things are going.

Don't you?=)

I did not choose you, but You chose me

Past March I've been celebrating birthdays & birthdays...when i was younger, i use to think how come so "mafan," Everyone's birthday also got to celebrate, some people i knew don't even celebrate at all lo...haha!
Then i come to know, that everyone hold a special meaning to God, therefore He created us!Like Jesus, the Saviour of the world, not only his death date (Good Friday) was celebrated, but His birthdate was widely celebrated too, tt's how we got our Christmas!! Yeah my favourite occasion of the year other than my birthday..=)

I do believe whenever we are invited to a birthday event,it is always an honor,and a joy to give & blessed others!
Firstly,coming to the gifts part.. I feel it is impt to discern what is the person's need,& something tt's really helpful!

Secondly, a more challenging one...budget wise, i ever went shopping with my member Hock soon, he has no budget on the gifts he is getting for his niece, just as what my cgl,cindy shared, he has impacted us in a way that the gift for her had no budget, it is because of the love he had for her..the amount doesn't matter!

Such as when Jesus choose to die for us, does He had any budget?
I doubt so....His love for us had been so great for us that He's willing to die for us sacrificially which requires no budget!
Instead of blaming, cursing the sinners, Jesus told God to forgive them (us sinners)for they do not know.But only upon one condition..whoever call upon the Lord your God shall be saved...as simple as that...and so on..ok i am going deeper that's another topic!=)

Lastly a gifts holds an impt value, i am someone tt's training myself to have greater financial discipline, inorder to sow more into His kingdom, and saved up for future, use such as further studies. However, it is always better to give than to receive, if someone has my gifts, it is someone that is appreciated & he/she means a lot to me..no matter how busy, i'll take the time, effort & of course finances, be it big or little thoughts to bless the person.

• It means you are being appreciated


• Thanks for making a difference in my life


• Thanks for your faithfulness


• You are loved


• God is with you


• Friend, you are still remembered


• I 'am there for you


• And Happy Birthday


• or Merry Christmas

And the list goes on & on...haha

God i did not choose to be given birth, But You chose me out of the womb

And dear friends, not only did I choose you to be my friends, but you chose to be opened in this friendship..=)

Seriously nowadays i chose my friends wisely...But thanks for standing with me...;D

You are more than a story

The most impt things in my life...my family, my friends,my loved ones, ministry you are impt to me yet i think solitude makes me soar up higher.I am truly nothing without You, He makes me love greatly, focus better, served a greater purpose...What can i do to make a difference? i am an ordinary girl, yet the extraordinary Him that's inside of me do a greater works in me.

Discouraged when i didn't obtain the expectation in the areas of my career, my ministry, i was talking to Him..& He came in, He gave a big smile:"my daughter,well done,good & faithful servant!"
flash of vision & dreams skidded through my realms of thoughts.....

I opened up my eyes, He's nowhere to be seen, or should i rephrase He's now here! Yes, the reality that i am about to enter,will be what it was seen in the moments of stillness..

Weariness, setbacks in the reality....many are to come, but after all these, I will see a glorious light, more beautiful than the rise of sunset.I'll give my smile!=D

That's how it will be when you see me..I'll bring you the joy,the love & the hope He has given, even when the going gets tough, the tough kept going!

About Myself

Ok finally, i find the motivation to write inspirational blog to stir up one another!
Alr is another one year...& times fly...recently family's been expanded... Yeah is a joy!
(If u know what i mean);D
Prob some close friends been wondering abt my staying with aunt..ok I was born into a family of 5, I had another extended family(My father's side), my aunt & uncle who see me as their own daughter,I have been staying with them eversince I was young, cos my mum was having post natal blue,her health was not strong enough to look after me.
Staying with my aunt & uncle, inclusive of my 4 other cousins...they treated me like their sister.. I felt pampered! Yet my uncle, whom i regarded as my 2nd father... brought up his kids with strict discipline,so am I. Despite what's our age, in his eyes we are always his sons & daughters.
At times the strictness of my uncle may lead to inward rebellion,as my old uncle & auntie might not receive much education..yet they always want to give the best to me. At times, although thoughts of unfairness may arise,eg:"I am alr old enough le,how come i still have to follow this & that, following so much rules..."
I have to say is not easy...but in each and every way God is moulding me to a path of filial piety.
Yi Lun ever told me in the 1st commandments You shall have no other God before me
5th commandments Honor your father & mother. Therefore other than 1st fruit to God, 2nd blessing is of course for our parents who raised us up right?=)
Now i am so blessed with 2 house & 2 family, of course i'll am still very close with my biological family. Two great brothers Jackson & Matthew, still in the midst of praying for my father as well as my 2nd father(my uncle).
Thank you Abba for showing the love through my earthly fathers..=)

The Recent drama that I have been catching

Love this song to bits, seems to brighten my heart at anytime
Prob have neglected my blog a bit, so many things happening at one go, & where shall i start with..

Start with this video bah,& btw i am still in the midst of choinging the whole episode!

The Rising

I enjoyed listing to the hit song for KL Emerge, The Rising

It goes:

All around me, All I see is the Impossible,Or so it seems
But then I change my lenses, look beyond my circumstances
The eyes of faith make all the difference
Hope will arise, Hope will arise

Launch me like a cannon ball, I soar up high above it all
This is not my flight of fancy, I define reality
The fuel of faith drives me on, I will endure and finish strong
Holy Ghost empowering, This is it, This is the Rising

I need Your grace for all my days
Carry me on the wings of faith

Presenting to YOU the impact of KL Emerge experience (part 2)

I am continually blessd by the people in KL, Pastor Kevin, church members from ministry... I have to say their church have the DNA of our Church in S'pore, growing from glory to glory each time we went.

I was impacted most in the last svc,when Pst Kong used Pst Kevin, in whom displayed the qualities of the sonship. Pst Kong said whatever he has, Pst Kevin will tend to follow after him, eg: a watch he wore,Pst Kevin will wear a similar design,even as our church started the Emerge,he followed...Your church is my church, your friends are my friends, your people are my people....

Your vision,my vision.

I guess most of the S'pore team are truly blown away by Pastor Kong's heartfelt preaching, not just that, but the presence which was immensely stronger than the all other sevices..

Upon our realisation, we discover even their people are so imperfect, they are still part of us, we were brought closer to the word "acceptance!" Though most of the time we tend to be judgemental,in the imperfect pple, imperfect customer service, in the environment.. but we do need to admit that we ourselves are not so perfect too..

And of course we enjoyed ourselves in every events "The Beauty Pageant", "the Greatest loser", exciting performance by Shawn Lee,the no 9th Beatboxer champion in the world, Special performance by celebrity & my Fav POS(Parade of School), a cheerleading performance!



I am all excited about school revival, or workplace revival, & also family salvation! I really do hope in the upcoming years, our church will cont to organise an Emerge, a time where creativity & talents are released!=)

My KL Emerge experience Part 1

Hmm sometimes in life i felt i have outgrown myself of youth events, I attended the 2008 Emerge in Kuala Lumpur, maybe nah just once is enough!
Prob just staying at home shower attention to my love ones will be more than enough, going through the mediocre of life seems fine with me...
However God works in a different way,in the Spirit,its seemingly telling me "You shall not missed it, I have a greater impartations for you." So I prayed & fasted.
All along, I have a vision of being a missionary,travelling around the world to spread the gospel, i know coming to the realistic view of S'pore it seems impossible, the finances to sustain, how?

But my God is a great God... he took my imagination to a greater heights,"Eyes has not seen,nor ear heard, Nor have entered into the heart of man.The things which God has prepared for those who love Him."<1cor2:9> He challenged my faith & opened my eyes to a greater perspectives......wow! I can't even hold my breath..

At the beginning of our KL Trip other than our self-indulgence of the beautiful shopping areas, awesome food, i kept on reminding myself not to overly spend my hard-earned money, missionary but not mission spender! His blessing to me is to do great works, to be a blessing to others.
Subsequently we have to be real focus, Impartations next come Application, we have to apply our skills & talents, what we have learnt to serve His people. One thing I learnt "But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you."(MATT6:33) Ultimately He added closer r'ship with my family,bonds of trust, love & appreciation. Breakthrough in workplace, i have to admit that i have very nice colleagues, understanding superiors, not everyone is perfect but i found friends who are willing to listen, believe in what you are, encouraging you to work harder, challenge yourself for a greater excellence. Be more sensitive to ur patients, who say elderly doesn't have feelings? Anyway that's another blog updates..:)

During the Emerge,our team we served & we served,I became tired, dropdead, missing my home, He dropped me an encouragement, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness"<2cor12:9> Yi lun ever taught me is easy to praise when we are doing well, but is a scacrifice of praise when we praised Him at our lowest period! I praised, & sang tgr with good pal Xin Yi. And I felt we were being launched up like a cannon ball!! Whee!!

To be continued....

Sri Lanka day(the end of blog)

Going for this mission trip is indeed life changing,my skills are put to use & walking closer to His calling for me. Sometimes at work or in life when I felt discourage,i'll think back of the Sri lanka kids,they have nothing yet we have everything but not satisfied....they are truly my motivator!
I make great friends from the team of 10 pple during the trip.

I went to the trip with Pst Gideon(from Tamil svc),He's totally so funny! Haha, as He was helping to translate the diagnosis of of the Tamil's pple,eg: 1 patient has an ulcer in the mouth, from Tamil to English lang...He had a fruit growth in the mouth! The other example,i think the patient had a heartburn,complaining of stomac burning...it was translated to I got stomach fire!!
It was totally hilarious!! And he shared with us stories of how he first met his wife...inspiring really & romantic of course!;) Will share with u the full details if u'r interested to know..

Then our team was leaded by David ECD,though i was wishing very much that Pst Kenneth would come along too! Though he maybe someone tt's very D,yet without him,we might not be able to complete the journey on time.Really thankful to him:)

Along the mission team,we have 2 Doctors, Dr Jin Kiat & Tiffany tang, the best doctors i ever wored with,they are so funny! Not those kind with full of attitude u experience in hospital,but the ones serving with passion & love.I was so inspired by them, & it happens that both of them have got the same birthdates....but don't be mistaken they are not couples,just coincidentally.. haha!

Working along with me is Nurse Peck! She's totally work orientated when it comes to work, really a good nurse,ang given me great advises for my future, emphasise the importance of me to go for further studies,yea I'll want to study the best I can,be as influential as I can for Lord Jesus Christ.

And also Jin shui,we kept on calling him kim jui...oops! He's been so helpful throughout the trip, esp on the fourth day of the trip when we had been so busy with the administering & explanation of the medications,he helped us so much with the packaging,which saved us a lot of trouble.

Last but not least,we had got the youngest team members,age 17 only, they are David gan & Isabelle yeo, they were helping out with the children,thinking up of creative games to entertain them,it was such a great fun,i tell u.If i wasn't busy dispensing the meds,i would have been joining them, they are really hyper & full of excitement. Is really through God's grace that despite the communication barrier,the children throughly enjoyed themselves,loving every sweets & gifts presented to them!:D

Usually at day 2 & 4,we gather in a room,to discuss what things had impacted us & what are the things we can do to improve our flow of work.Also I shared that the reason I want to go through this mission trip,is truly because of this vision God had given to our Church & me..
(Matt28:19) Go therefore and make disciples of all nations,baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit)

Sri Lanka,my day 2 experience.......=D

After serving all the medications on the 1st day of our clincs work, we were still lack of meds.So on the 2nd day after our Yummy breakfast, we headed on to the Pharmacy.U can see on the description from the guy's expression! Though it was just simple bread, butter, jam & egg...It tasted like heaven...kk, i admit we were hungry,haha! Despite all the flies(but we manage to shove em away), esp the scramble eggs with bread,the taste combination goes well. And their tea blended well, though it tend to be sweeter.

Hence we proceeded to our next destination,the village to ve our clinics set up, upon our arrival, the villagers gladly served us tea & biscuits while we make some preparation.

The turnout suprisingly were not alot, only ard 20 pple came overall. But we managed to enjoy the scenery,& chatted with some of the villagers. Also Nurse Peck manage to treat one man with the case of fracture of the finger, improvising with an ice-cream stick to help with the bones alignment! Which i thought that's rather creative of her!=D

Sri Lanka Day 1

Oops I have been rather slow in updating The day 1 event..Hmm I have to say day 1 after we departed from the Airport at Colombia,we were warmly greeted by our host, Suraiban(I hope tis is the right spelling),Pastor's son.
And so on we had a rocky 8hours journey, but but we manage to stop by a nice cosy restaurant for a nice supper...Hmm the food is quiite nice,portion is big, but thank God I manage to share my pasta with Isabel.However my advice is please dun ever order the cheese cake if u ever go Sri Lanka, will not emphasise here but still S'pore one is nicer!!After the supper we headed to Vavuniya,the place that we got to stay over in.
Upon arrival to our hotel, before we gt to rest, we have to buy medications for e pple,then head on to our next journey to set up our clinics.
Clinics consisted of 3 stations, 1st the triage,whereby pple come to tell about their problems, taking their pulse & blood pressure.
2nd the doctor station to tell them their diagnosis,& prescribed them the medications.
3rd station is my station,the nurses(me) served & explained to them the types of medications,plus when to take it.Btw in case of any communication barrier, we actually got a translator to help us translate our explanation.
At the end of the day,transition is so fast,after seeing all the patients, they immediately changed the place to a time of prayer meeting! And the most miraculous thing is we saw pple that is healed during the prayer meeting!Even the doctors are amazed,physical healing is only what the doctors & nurses can do but only God can do the Spiritual complete healing!! Wow!!!

The flight boarding to Sri Lanka

7/9/09 On the way to airport, towards my flight to Sri Lanka. Like anyone that has a common thoughts of fear...oh mine what had I gotten myself onto? Can I retreat, most of the pple were not able to send me off..awww.
But i come to a point that since i made a decision,i will stick close to it! Is not by any chance tha Pst Kenneth had approach me for the mission trip with approval from Lun, & I believe it'll be a life changing one!
To my plesant surprise, not only just my faithful friend Shi min came, my favorite cg N282,NOTIFIED last minute,all came. My heart instantly melted,who are those closer tham my family mbrs?
Tears could have well down my eyes, i am full of thanks,who am i that deserve such whole loads of love?
The wk b4,receive one whole loads of stress & discipline,yea but i shall arise stronger in the midst!
My team were of course amazed by my big group of supporters,i am the most blessed afterall.Once again thanks for all the well wishes, N282, & my cgl Zhen!

Sri Lanka day 1...to be continued...

Women of this generation

...Being a lady is seemingly hard hard hard, even after so much association with so much woman in life, my mum,cousins,my female nurses, my female leaders & friends! Female!!! Haha,in the past I was someone quite tom-boyish,growing up with my brothers, associating with all my guy friends...I don't mind if pple treat me as their brother!
Shirt & pants my kind of dressing,ya kinda nerdy in the past too!lol
Being touchy eg:like hugs,observing others being intimate seem to make my hair stand on ends.

But her affection touches me, her voice brings grace, her works for charity inspired me.
She's our Church beloved Ho Yeow Sun,Pastor's wife!:)
During my secondary school days, before I receive Christ. I was with my class doin a survey along Orchard road, on the LCD screen played a MV by Sun,"Wo men de dong tian."
Her voice was drawing.

Few months down the road I came to Christ before I knew it, Sun is actually my church's pastor too!
I was in WYZ zone then, subsequently multiplied to Yi Lun's zone. As Yi Lun was giving me BS, she shared with me ,if we were to cut open Sun's heart, we'll see China. Sun had always carried a heart for China, building homes, schools & making donation to the people in China!
Wow China,it was her action that really inspired me to reach out to the Chinese nurses during my sch days. I carried the burden for China,preaching to them abt Christ.
Now I pray even as a nurse I can do the little things, to meet the needs, heal the hurts,reaching out to China in future.

I am still in the midst of learning,looking up to the powerful woman of this generation!
Sun, Lun, Zhen, Yun:)
I ve great dreams of being a woman preacher, sharing my life experiences, empowering others with skills to enhance their rate of employment!

Of course in His light, i changed,simply dressed up a little more, smile a little more,Powerful woman also need to be lady-like.Shall be more feminine on the outside,loving in the inside.
Because afterall,beauty is in His creation=D

A Better Missy Wannabe

Feelings are subjective, emotional well-being is a decision. Greater things are yet to be done!=D
Sometimes trying hard to focus, not to be distracted with the things around. Even when problems arises, i want to face it, don't want to escape.I ve been tactful with my sharing,staying accountable in all ways to my leaders.
Many things in life,I think is impt to let go & let God, and faith is in the middle!
I need to know the first purpose God has called me to, be a great nurse & impact the community.Learning is always a continuous process.
I am learning to be a woman of stronghold,my patients always deserved my best care. So that ever someday if i were to start a family, i'll learnt how to manage it.
He wants me to focus. What about my own needs in life? He told me to seek first the kingdom of God, then all the desire of my heart shall then be added to me!
What a nice revelation;D
I shall set forth in a more in drawing closer to the experience dr, nah not tt i m interested but to suck their knowledge..haha!
Focus brings power.
In all my ways,effective communication is important in life.Personal to general, communication shall always be specifically articulated.
Hmm I somehow miss communicating in usher Hotel 3, but yet i am thankful that it builds me up!:)
My committment indeed makes me what I am in life.
Yet my leader said one thing that i feel is very true. Don't just be so effectively serving in church & yet in the market place we are nothing.Students to score well, study hard & study smart in school, don't ever let your parents think that spending too much time in church pull down your grades. Working adults, may u continue to work effectively in all places, & prosper as your soul prosper. God can use all of of us mightily in a different ways.
Also don't be everything we are in the marketplace & yet not contributing our talents n creativity in church. All of us are in a body of Christ,at least try to play a part!:)

I am telling myself:"I want to be a better nurse, a better woman, a better leader!"

YES I CAN, & YES U CAN!!

让我 City Harvest Church

Title:LET ME

Your love awakens me,
to start anew
Deeply yearning to live within Your hands,
Life beats together with You
Dreams sprouts because of You
Giving everything to You,
All of my life

Bridge:

Dreams that we have
are realizing hopes

I have seen the light of eternity
Light is in my heart
Letting out in the world,
Let me shine for You

Chorus:
Let me live life for You
Let me stand for You
never giving up like You love me
let me go on for You
You have redeemed my life
Now i wholly belong to You
Living out Your will for me
Changing the world to live for You :)





May I wake up every morning to tell Him:
"God let us change the world together, nothing in my hands, You are all that I am."
Mould me, refine me according to Your will.

I need Your knowledge & wisdom.

Not giving up no matter how tough it is, because You are never too far.

You held my hands when is cold.

Embraced me when I felt hopeless.

Right now,
Success is near
Revival & breakthrough is here,
but all Glory be to Yours!!

Making a difference in the lives of others :)

One wk ago as I was making round with the Doctors, then one of this palliative dr spoke to one of my patients. This patient of mine had a deteroriating condition,treatment for him was somehow ineffective, thus the dr was explaining to him the areas they could made to improve his conditions . As the doctor was explaining, the patient was asked to express how he feel, and tears began to streaked down his face
Nurses are somehow advice not to put too much emotions or get too close to patients, as in case depression may set in if anything were to happen to the patient...such as a sudden death.
But I somehow felt for this patient, and my eyes started to brim with tears, I had to remind myself I am still working, crying tgr wif the patient seem so unprofesssional man.And worst still if it were to bring the atmosphere more down.. haha.

To protect the confidentiality of the patients I won't be describing more, anyway the main thing I feel is like what pastor mentioned...pple need the Lord...(Rom6:23)For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord.
As mentioned by Zhenn, don't just focus on the 5 when the 1000 pple around us haven't been saved.
(John10:10)The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and they may have it more abundantly.
As the saying goes pple don't care how much you know until how they know how much you care..

Dear God I pray, for a greater patience, love and compassion, even my flesh may fail me but You can love through me, stretcccched me to a greater capacity.
(1Tim6:11-12) pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, patience, gentleness. Fight the good fight of faith, lay hold on eternal life, to which you were also called and have confessed the good confession in the presence of many witnesses.

Sometimes we go into a stage of self-pitiness, looking at the inadequacy we have in life, but after experiencing life & death, i feel as compared to the very sick, majority of us have been so fortunate. Is now that we stop looking to have our needs being met, start meeting the needs of those that needed more than we do:)

Everyone of us can make a difference in someone's else lives today!=D

Blessed is His Name

If u think Carrisa is a very blessed girl, it is because of His Blessed name! Let us dance dance, sing sing & clap clap.
Yes in life, setbacks do arrives but even in the midst I'll choose to PRAISE, PRAY & PRESS ON!
Is easy to praise when we are doing well & happy, but it takes sacrifices to praise even when we are at our lowest period!:)
Let the joy of the Lord be Your strength today!!=D